I’ve been struggling with anger. Anger at my alters… for hijacking my life. I wish I was just a normal addict. I can’t make them go away… and they are scared I’m going to try to hurt myself again… to get rid of them. I managed not to use last night… made the mistake of being honest with my “house monitor” and now they just told me they are “concerned I’m going to relapse and that I would be better suited in a mental health facility”. And I’m out
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- the person who asked
On Friday if I don’t find a job… even though I’m busting my ass looking for one. I don’t think I would stay even if I do find one… but where am I going to live? My car? My DID group said it’s bullshit… they would never treat a disabled person or a vet like that. I have no clue what to do. I’ve already turned it all over to god. But now I don’t want to talk to anyone so it can’t be used against me… even online meetings. I’m scared.
- someone who replied
Yeah that’s sounds tough. On one hand it sounds like maybe they could be right that a transfer is a good option, on the other it sounds a bit like retaliation for you behind honest instead of them trying to take responsibility to help you in the moment. Is there someone else at the facility that you trust that you can talk to? Sometimes you may get a response like that from a worker who is overworked or feeling short.
- someone who replied
Ugh. So bullshit. How are you feeling now? Have a plan or how can I help talk though options or something? No judgement. Sounds like you are really trying, I hope they take that onto consideration
- the person who asked
Nope. Still no job and no where to go. Keep reading the DDA just for today… reminding us to stay calm and have faith. It’s tough!!!!
